Two is better than one, three is company

This week was... interesting. We had one of our sisters in the zone go home early because she was sick (my trainer sister stanfield) so we had another sister with us this week, Sister Perkins, she is a great Sister and we had a lot of fun but being with three people all week is somewhat overwhelming. One of us was grumpy almost at all times and needless to say there was some crying that I was of course uncomfortable with. But this week I was really feeling like I just wanted some alone time, and then I was feeling like I just really wanted to be around people who loved me and I loved them. I know my companion loves me, and I love her. The people in the ward are great and I really enjoy them but to them I am just another missionary and I am temporary. So needless to say I was feeling like I just really wanted to be around my family, or someone who isn't forced to be with me 24/7 and learn to love me. So I just prayed a lot this week that I would be able to feel God's love more in my life and rely on that to get me through that week, it didn't work haha I didn't feel ANY extra love all week I was getting desperate so I said a prayer that went something like this, "Heavenly Father I know you are aware of me, I know you love me but I really need something more, I am really struggling right now and I just need one of those moments that helps me know that you are looking out for me." later that day I got on Facebook to do some online proselyting and I had a message from April Baird, who is my favorite person from Rocklin and was my saving grace there and it said. "I am going to be in Chico for work this weekend! Where is church and what time is it? I want to come see you." So yesterday at church on her lunch break she came and said hi to me and gave me a hug and later today I am going to lunch with her. I can't tell you how good it was to see someone who genuinely loves me and wanted to see me.  God answers prayers, I could have made it through the rest of my week without getting that physical witness that God is still aware of me, but because He loves me and He cares about me and He wants me to be happy He showed me that He is ultimately in charge and He is always going to take care of me. I am not complaining I really am doing well and I am still loving my mission just in case any of you are starting to worry about me.... don't worry i'm cool. 

We officially set a date this week with Tara for December 13th and she told her step dad which is a HUGE step because her family is very against her getting baptized. God is answering her prayers too because her step dad said that he would support her and that he wants her to be happy and if this is what makes her happy he will do everything he can to lessen the family drama. God answers prayers!!!! If there is one thing I have learned on my mission so far it is that God is so aware of me and all those around me. He loves every single one of us because we are His children and He wants us to be successful and happy. That is why He has given us commandments. For example, in the word of wisdom we are told not to drink alcohol, or strong drink this commandment seems very unreasonable for many people but for the person who becomes an alcoholic after drinking one time this commandment is a saving grace, they will never have to battle alcholism if the adhere to that commandment. God is merciful and loving. I know this because I am less than perfect, I have so many different weaknesses and I know that everyday I do something that isn't exactly in line with God and I think to myself, "ah crap not again! Why do I keep messing up? I am so HUMAN" and I know Heavenly Father is thinking, "Wow look at all the good that Melissa did today, everyday she is getting better and she is trying to overcome all of her weaknesses. I am so proud of her, I love her so much." I know that is true for all of you, regardless of where you are at in your life. Heavenly Father is proud of you. Don't give up, keep trying. This video is called Good things to come and its from a conference talk that Elder Jeffery R Holland gave and I love it! I rely on it's message all the time.  /video/mormon-messages?v=911029449001  I love you all! Keep trying to be better everyday, I will be doing the same.