This week has been weird emotionally. As most of you know I don't express my emotions very well and I stupidly think everyone should have the opinion of me that "Sister Lyman has it all together, she doesn't struggle, she just works hard and trusts God" I have been making things really hard fro myself because I think that and I haven't been relying on God and my companion like I should, I like to think I can do everything myself but I am quickly realizing that isn't possible. This week was rough, we had a lot of appointments cancel and we were really excited for them because people were meeting with us for the first time! I was really discouraged. So I asked my District Leader for a blessing and and because I am a brat I didn't really love what was said because it didn't say what I thought I needed to hear. It mostly said that I need to put my trust in God and rely on Him to help me. So I kept thinking about and pondering on the things God told me in the blessing and I was frustrated because I thought I was relying on him A LOT (a lot more than I ever had) but then I soon realized that I wasn't really relying on him, I have been kind of allowing him to be a part of my work but I need to stop being a control freak and allow him to do most of the work and recognize that I am just a tool that he is using, a really great and important tool that he loves more than I can imagine! But, a tool nonetheless. I have a long way to go to really learn to rely on him and fully let go and let God.... but its a work in progress.
We had a lot of meetings this week, well 2, Zone conference and Trainer and Trainee meeting with the mission president. They were really good but it took up a lot of proselyting time and that was disappointing. But I found out I am related to my mission president very distantly. His grandmother is Beth Lyman and really far back he is related to Amassa Lyman (Grandma are we related to him? I am pretty sure we are but I guess I should double check, if not... I lied to my mission president and someone in the ward haha whoops).
When I finally started putting my trust in God towards the end of the week and realized I should stop trying to do things on my own things got a lot better. We met Ryan he is awesome! He is a dad and has a lot of questions. We talked to him about the restoration, baptism, and the Book of Mormon. We gave him a Book of Mormon and invited him to read and pray about it, he said he would read and pray about the Book of Mormon and we are going back this week to ask him how that went. We also set up an appointment with SheVeeta!!! She is the girl who we tracted into and her father is a pastor. We had one of the girls who lives in our ward boundaries go invited her to a YSA activity and she went!!! Then we set up an appointment to meet with her it was really exciting! Then our ward had girls camp this week and a lot of the girls invited non-member friends who loved it. One girl who went didn't want to go AT ALL, she is living with her aunt who is a member and her aunt basically forced her to go but she went and she bore her testimony there and said she wants to take the discussions! So we set up an appointment to meet with her on Tuesday :) We can't wait!!! Hearing about all of their awesome stories and how many girls wanted to learn more after going to girls camp made me wish that I had actually gone when I was able to but its cool I will just force my daughters to go ;).
Time goes by SOOOOO fast!!! My first transfer is already almost done and we only have 12 total. That is crazy! I love being a missionary though it really is the best thing in the world. In a talk Jeffery R. Holland gave he said talking about missionary work, "this is the closest to real life you will ever get, you aren't leaving real life you are coming to it!" (or something like that). I know that is true. I love dedicating this time to my Savior. It is crazy how much love I can feel for someone when I have never met them before, it also helps me realize how much Christ loves me. I know the atonement is real and I am so grateful for it every single day, we would be lost without his sacrifice I can't imagine the pain that Christ went through while he suffered in the Garden but I do know that he loves each and every one of us--nothing but the pure love of Christ could have endured such pain and torment. In my personal study this week I was reading in Alma 32 and verses 37-43 really stuck out to me, go read the whole thing! But verse 37 says "And behold, as the tree beginneth to grow, ye will say: Let us nourish it with great care, that it may get root, that it may grow up, and bring forth fruit unto us. And now behold, if ye nourish it with much are it will get root,, and grow up and bring forth fruit." (mom and grandma I know you will love this because you love trees) I related this to my investigators and less actives. We need to nourish not only our testimonies but the testimonies of others and help them come to the knowledge of the gospel. There is no other way to return to live with God, and our families, than through the Gospel of Jesus Christ I know that is true! Go out and share the gospel with someone this week, that is my challenge to all of you! Love you all! Happy Birthday KenKen I love you :)
"That street sign with me says mission street so naturally I had to take a picture"
Church shaped rice krispie treats from my sister! She said that if I ate them I was sure to get people to come to church. I ate 5 of them that week and we had 5 less actives come to church. Coincidence? I think not!
Care Package from my Sisters and Mom
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